Did I give up too soon?
Was I so pessimistic about my “future” that I gave up on any hope of getting happiness through you? I always tell myself that I am a realist when it comes to life and relationships. I try my best to stay out of it because I don’t want to be heartbroken. I don’t ever want to emotionally invest myself to someone because it will hurt even more when I lose that person. This maybe the reason why I think too much like a business student. Risk vs. Return. In business, the bigger risk, the higher returns you’re hoping you will receive. In a relationship, it’s the same thing. The more you invest into it, you expect more from it. As someone who has had 2 epically failed relationships, I thought pushing away love and my feelings will be the smart thing to do, but is it the best thing for me? I’ve been in a self conflicted dilemma this past year. What do I want in life? How am I going to achieve it? What’s more valuable to me?
I cannot come up with a conclusion as with many things in life. Maybe time will change who I am and what my views are on the subject, but as of now, I will just go with the flow.
